such_heights: a blonde woman smiling brightly (parks and rec: leslie [smile])
Because [personal profile] happydork and I are nerds, we saw this on our reading lists and went 'ooh, let's fill it out separately and post and compare results!'. So here we are. Her answers here.

Who's oldest? K, by nearly five years
Who was interested? Haha, K had to ask me out twice! The first time was super vague and I thought it was a fannish friend dinner, and afterwards she had to email again and be like 'again? but a for real date this time' and I went 'ohhhh'.
Same high school? Nope, different cities.
Worst temper? We're both pretty chill, but K probably gets more cranky.
More social? Me, the extrovert one.
Hardest working? K, probably
Most stubborn? K
Who makes the most mess? Also K, the first time I saw her room was an eye-opener!
Wakes up first? Ideally both of us would basically sleep forever, though K was kind of a morning person until I dragged her into my bad habits.
Who cooks the most? K does almost all the cooking, she's a hero.
Who cries more? Hahahahahah me.
Who is the better singer? Me, or at least I sing in front of people sometimes.
Hogs the remote? We're so bad at TV lately, neither of us.
Better driver? God, one of these days one of us really has to learn to drive! /o\
Better cook? K
Smartest? K
More romantic? I'm more into traditionally romantic gestures, but on the other hand one time K basically moved house for us while I slept and it was the greatest thing anyone has ever done for me probably.
How long have you been together? 4 years dating, 18 months married. N'aw.
such_heights: a blonde woman smiling brightly (parks and rec: leslie [smile])
Things are going really well with my current therapist. I'm making some real progress in understanding how I operate and why I struggle with certain things the way I do.

Peeling through layers of mental debris is raising lots of questions, and one I keep thinking about is who I really am, who could I be without quite so much baggage from mental illness and general sadness?

I'm not sure. I'm still figuring it out. But one thing has struck me, something that has frankly shaken my sense of self to its very core! (I kid. Sort of.) All this time, I thought I knew something about myself, but I think I was dead wrong.

I think I might be an extrovert.
such_heights: amy and rory looking at a pile of post (stock: books)
+ [personal profile] happydork and I successfully moved house and are settling in nicely to East London. It's simultaneously very strange to have left [personal profile] purplefringe, Awesome Housemate K and the cat behind (though to be fair I still see them lots), and very nice to be setting up our own place. Our decorating scheme is ALL THE COLOURS, and everything's very light and airy. Also now full of giant beanbags. Today we got bookshelves and finally unpacked our books, which instantly makes everything look better. Home is where my Harry Potter books are.

+ Having some time out from work is working out pretty well for the moment - I have been spending lots of time setting up the flat and installing things, and I'm feeling a lot better in pretty much every conceivable way compared to a month ago. But on Tuesday I'll be signing on and then it's job hunting a go go. I still don't really know what it is that I want to do, but there are a couple of job ads that look promising in the meantime.

+ I am slowly trying to get myself to remember how to string sentences together. I barely write any more; no fiction, no journal entries, and even my tweets are mostly retweets or replies to other people. So, hi, internet. I miss you. Let's chat more. <3

2014

Dec. 31st, 2014 10:28 pm
such_heights: korra and asami facing each other bathed in golden light (avatar: korrasami [golden light])
This was a great year for me.

the year that was. )

Happy New Year, everyone. <3
such_heights: amy pond in her wedding dress (who: amy [wedding])
A couple of weeks ago I sent [personal profile] purplefringe an email:

So the thing is that waiting until the end of September is two whole months away and that’s so looong omg.

Do you know what’s not far away? Nine Worlds. Do you what’s awesome? Convention proposals. We'd never get the rings organised in time but I've found a good stand in one that is cheap but the same kind of colours/style.

It could be during a panel, or during the Lashings show, or I could enlist some helpers do some kind of lobbycon thing? If I do it on the day we're both cosplaying there could be a whole Iron Man shenanigans thing idk.


shenanigans )

tattoo!

Jun. 23rd, 2014 07:17 am
such_heights: amy and rory looking at a pile of post (who: amy [giggle])
Well, I finally did the thing. :D

fresh ink under the cut )
such_heights: amy pond (who: amy [time of angels])
the year that was )
such_heights: a hand cupping a candle (stock: candle)
Autumn has arrived rather firmly here in London, and with it the wave of sad and tired I've come to associate with SAD. This is unusually early for me, so I've been on the back foot, scrambling to get my light box set up and GP appointments scheduled in. But I'm doing okay. Fistbump to everyone else dealing with this at the moment, whether you're in the northern hemisphere with the winter version, or the southern hemisphere and the summer version. (I feel it's maybe not a widely-known fact that some people have SAD that hits in spring/summer? But that is indeed a thing.)

It's an odd thing, a mood disorder that comes with relatively reliable time parameters. Knowing that I'll definitely feel better come spring if not before is reassuring in some ways, but given it's only just autumn now, that's a bloody long time away, and the path between now and then is both treacherous and tedious, to borrow a phrase from Elementary.

In the meantime, one foot in front of the other. I try and take advantage of the good days to shore up progress in the things I want to get done, so it's less dispiriting on bad days and I have more space to breath and just take care of myself.

Something I always find difficult is learning when to push myself and when not to. The idea of leaving the house frequently becomes the worst idea in the world, but often when I manage to do it I feel better afterwards. Other times, it's too much, I call off whatever I was going to do. They're both acts of self-care, but it's always hard to tell which one I need on a given occasion.

Mostly I try and remember that this is a real illness, and that it's understandable for it to have an effect on my capacity to do things. I'm doing my best, and eventually, spring will come around again.

While writing this, I couldn't really think of any specific advice that I had to offer to people other than 'hang in there', but if anyone's got advice on this subject they'd like to share in the comments, I'd be interested to hear it!

Really though, hang in there. ♥
such_heights: a hand cupping a candle (stock: candle)
Like many people with depression, winter is a tricky time of year for me. Now that November's here, bringing darkness to the northern hemisphere, it's difficult to see the coming months as more than an obstacle to overcome, and once again I find myself wondering why exactly it is we don't hibernate as a species. In lieu of that I've got a range of tactics to start implementing - sun lamps and health professionals and friends and endless cups of tea. Whether all of that is enough to prevent the onset altogether remains to be seen.

discussion of depression )
such_heights: a woman, sitting, holds a standing woman's hand (stock: make a stand [mignolagraphics])
In response to a couple of concerned messages - yes, I am fine! The ongoing rioting in London hasn't affected where I live or where I work, so I haven't seen anything first hand. I don't really have much to say other than I am so sad and sorry that it's come to this, watching the news is awful.

[personal profile] happydork has links.

memery!

Jun. 17th, 2011 10:29 pm
such_heights: amy and rory looking at a pile of post (who: amy [meet tardis])
Questions from [personal profile] pocky_slash:

questions! spoilers for Doctor Who 6x07 )

From [personal profile] lovelythings:

questions! )

Let me know if you'd like some questions of your own!
such_heights: amy and rory looking at a pile of post (stock: christmas tree)
It is Christmas morning and I am curled up with a big fuzzy Appa (my Christmas present from [personal profile] avendya, pictures forthcoming) and there is snow outside. Life is good.

A very happy Christmas/Yuletide/Doctor Who Day/Saturday to you all! ♥
such_heights: a hand cupping a candle (stock: candle)
I'm not making any new year's resolutions this year, not now. Honestly, in January all I'm really aiming to do is pass my exams and survive until spring, it's not the best time to be worrying about my new exercise routine or whatever. (I would like to read some more books this year, though. After I graduate! Which is a strange notion.)

What I do like about New Year is the sense of a chapter closing, a moment of reflection and then moving on. This is what happened last year; what's next?

As for what happened last year - well, I was ill. Every time I look back over the last 12 months, it's a fact that colours everything. Here's the summer, where I was better, here's the autumn where it all fell apart again. This year was punctuated by bright periods of happiness, and I'm grateful for that, but they could only do so much the combat the weeks I spent pinned down by depression, like my own personal, inescapable gravity that showed no signs of letting go.

cut for discussion of depression and substance abuse that may be triggering )

You know, I was going to find a neater way to segue into this, but I'm running out the door and I've got nothing - have a happy new year, everyone. May 2010 bring you good fortune, peace, love in any of its many guises, and above all joy.
such_heights: amy and rory looking at a pile of post (m: gwen [bzuh?])
+ Briefly on Merlin: cut for spoilers )

+ I have had a charming weekend. It consisted of going to see Eddie Izzard (OMG I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I CANNOT EVEN) and also the new RSC production of Twelfth Night, which was really wonderful. Hilarious, suitably gay, and really fresh and vibrant - particularly, the best Olivia I have ever seen. And, not that this is a new revelation to me, Olivia/Viola OTP! Everyone/everyone OTP, really. :D

+ I also had the opportunity to hang out with [personal profile] lorannah, and we roamed second-hand bookshops and sat in a cafe and chatted about fandom and writing and upcoming projects. ♥

+ Oh my, I was transcribing my audio viewer commentary for Marble House earlier (coming to a [livejournal.com profile] vid_commentary near you first thing tomorrow, honest!), and I realised something. For anyone frustrated by my run-on sentences in posts and stories - I know, I know, I'm working on it - IT'S SO MUCH WORSE WHEN I TALK. D: I can't punctuate myself! I speak in paragraph-long phrases! Also, the commentary is nearly three times as long as the original vid. ALSO, I have done some seriously dorky things with text and annotations and such. Well, it's the point of no return now, it'll go up when I get up in the morning no matter how embarrassed I am about it.
such_heights: amy and rory looking at a pile of post (bsg: are you alive?)
I am at that stage of packing where I am utterly convinced that I have forgotten something of vital importance to the mission for my holiday, which is a sure sign that it is time for me to go to bed. (I must have everything important! My iPod is fully charged and loaded with new music and podfic, I have downloaded the story notes for the super sekrit special project I am working on - oh, and I have clothes and my toothbrush and stuff, too. *g*)

I shall be in New York for the next week, wandering around and seeing sights and nomming on food, also catching up with some Stateside fandomers. :D

Vid rec spam will resume next weekend, I am sure.
such_heights: amy and rory looking at a pile of post (film: lost in translation)
I am at that stage of packing where I am utterly convinced that I have forgotten something of vital importance to the mission for my holiday, which is a sure sign that it is time for me to go to bed. (I must have everything important! My iPod is fully charged and loaded with new music and podfic, I have downloaded the story notes for the super sekrit special project I am working on - oh, and I have clothes and my toothbrush and stuff, too. *g*)

I shall be in New York for the next week, wandering around and seeing sights and nomming on food, also catching up with some Stateside fandomers. :D

Vid rec spam will resume next weekend, I am sure.
such_heights: a woman, sitting, holds a standing woman's hand (stock: make a stand [mignolagraphics])
I keep trying to write a post about Battlestar Galactica, because I want to talk about it, and how it pains me tremendously but also I can't let it go. I'm trying to work how best to explain the former, and I'm still not sure why the latter is the case. All I can really tell you is that I'm clipping episodes for vidding and I keep crying at random screenshots of characters giving DRADIS readings and other such mundane moments. :/

ANYWAY. Let us move to happier subjects! Hi guys, I'm super excited that there are so many people coming over to Dreamwidth right now. I'm enjoying watching all of this unfold. And while I still don't know where I see myself based long-term, it was nice to have this place as a reassuring background presence when I read things like this. An anti-gay marriage ad has surfaced on the rota of LJ's ads -- Marta, one of the LiveJournal staffers, is to be very much commended for jumping in quickly and directly and sorting it out, but it highlights a basic problem that LJ don't have all that much control, apparently, over the content of their ads. It gives a certain extra bigotry-flavoured spice to checking your flist in the morning, you know?

Okay, that wasn't especially happy either. Take three! I thought maybe I would post some sort of introductory-type thing for anyone that's new around here.

ten things about me )

If you would like to introduce yourself here, please do!

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